Woah, I'm a blogger now. I've never really been interested in this but since I am about to go abroad, I figure that I should start. You can blame it on Natalie. I hope my other chums join the club as well. Anyway, let's begin!
I'm nervous about not being nervous. I am about to be gone for just about a year. I wont see my family or my cats. I can't play in my river. I won't see most of my friends (and their parents) for a long time. I wont get to go to the cheese shop or go to Aromas. I won't sleep in my bed. I'm afraid that I am going to miss so much because I won't be here. Good thing technology is so great. At the same time, I could not imagine going back to school in RoPark. I am thrilled to return for my last year--hopefully the last--but I do not think this next year would be good at all. There are crazy budget cuts, most of the people that I truly enjoy there are all studying abroad and after awhile, being under 21 in wine country gets a little old.
First off, I know it is going to hit me like a big phat brick once I get to the airport. I am dreading that day so much. There will be a lot of crying because we are all going to be without our families for so long. When my parents left after dropping me off at college, I had to get in my car and drive just so I could cry. Therefore, I have a feeling this is going to be a massive tear session. It will be so difficult because we are supposed to be getting to know each other but no one will want to talk. Maybe I will just hold off the tears for the first moment that I truly have alone when I am in Spain.
It really just doesn't feel real. I have all these great expectations for what will happen while I am there and what kind of person I will become. Now I am starting to feel like I shouldn't assume these things will happen just in case they don't. It will be so great to come home. I think that is one of the things I am looking forward to the most, reuniting with everyone. I will be such a different person. I will be bilingual and have made so many new friends--hopefully international ones--have tried so many things and visited so many places. Goodness it is going to be so exciting to visit Leslie and Amiee in Germany and Michelle and Nikki in France and Katie in Englad and Katie in Italy and perhaps Alex in Greece during the springtime. Spain will be so great. So far I have Hillary, Alan and Kat. Plus a few potentials. One thing that I have heard about and read about is this disconnect you have when you return. I really don't want that to happen. really.
I know already that it is going to go by so fast. I remember talking to Katherine--who spent the year in Barcelona--during October and she told me how sad she was already because she knew the time was going to go by too fast.
I hope people do visit. Everyone says that they will but I don't really believe them. I'm sure they would like to, but actually planning it is a whole other shabang. That would be a dream for me though, especially if they visit me by the time I feel comfortable with the language. I haven't been practicing AT ALL. good job corynn, way to commit!
Radiohead and The Flaming Lips are going to help. With everything. You too, TMV.
I miss having musician friends. They give you something to do on the weekends. I think I just miss being surrounded by art or just talented people, maybe I mean passionate people?
I have been working most of the summer. I hate it and love it. I hate the customer service part of it--oh wait, that's the job? And I wish I had more time with friends and family. I love my co-workers and of course the money seems to keep me going. Being a hostess is a lot more fun and less stressful.
This is going to be great. This is helping me realize what is going on.
Who am i?
Who am i?
